Finally the scary week pass.....Last week after my mum operation I was elated...
'I rang round just about everyone I could think of,' I laugh...But the next day I felt nothing....I had no inclination to get out of bed and face the constant pressure...Despite my sudden disillusionment,I continued to persevere and was the brain behind a new 'way' to solve it....
But,exceptionally,in my case,I had already been looking for an escape route...'Sure it was nice but the days were ridiculous if I still stubborn'....I felt I should have been carefree at these age but the burden of responsibility was enormous...and.....I felt trapped.....I forced myself to stay on for another few week,but then nervously asked for a sabbatical.....
I admit to being a perfectionist, an attribute which saw me rise through the ranks in no time...But I realise it is a weakness too....Now I feel that like I committed 'suicide' by opting to continue my pathway...
'Izit I did wrong decision this time??' I asked myself....Yet the result show me negative.....I had to leave my 'Computer Day' to take care of my mum but would come online late in a hour.It made no difference....My dad still simply alienated me....
Few years,I had to acted like an ordinary boy which just work under their order....Now I really pissed off to them....But at the same time....I still don know izit I'm the 1 who stubborn?Or they are the 1 who really stubborn....
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